Honestly… I don’t know where to start. There is sooo much to tell, and I’ve been trying to find the right words to describe my experiences in Amsterdam but I just can’t seem to find them. I feel changed in a way. It somehow felt like home. The connection I experienced, with both people and the universe at large was indescribable. Profound and intense I guess would be somewhat close.

Clouds, bananas, vines, drums, laughs, tears, smiles, more smiles, love, oneness, bliss, peace, epiphanies, realizations, home, earth, space, dimensions, purpose, meaning, calling, metamorphosis, changeling, evolution, awakening, life, release, surrender, admire, elevate, inspire…

Life.

I will struggle to come to terms with what all of it means for a long time moving forward. What life means to me. What living means to me. And how I should orient myself in the world. I feel like I opened up the gates to the entire cosmos and just slipped my toe across the threshold.

But one thing is for damn sure. I haven’t smiled this much and felt at ease in a way such as this, in such a short period of time ever before. Everything was just perfect. And I understand now what I have to do. I have to understand. I have to. I have to do something. I have to get out.

This is the first day of the rest of my life 🙂