This past month has really been something else. I feel like I’ve escaped the grasp of a pool of quicksand. Using my own strength coupled with the aid of people close to me, I’ve managed to not only avoid unnecessary misery, but I’ve managed to create a clear path towards reclaiming the lost aspects of my personality. I’m slowly getting to where I’m meant to be. And I choose to not regret a single moment of anything that has happened. Because Lord knows who I would’ve been and what epiphanies and such I would’ve missed unless I got where I am today. I believe things could’ve gone better. But I also know things could’ve been a hell of a lot worse. And right now, I’m confident. I’m dedicated and excited. I have SO many things planned for when this summer is over.

I have a new apartment that’s getting ready for a move in in August. I have travel plans that I’m aiming to put into motion the coming fall. I have reconnected with old friends, connected with some new yet not totally unfamiliar individuals, and my sense of self-worth has slowly been showing its wretched face again. I’m feeling better.

All I can see right now are opportunities and possibilities. And to actually utilize them I have decided to stay away from anything regarding romantic feelings for about a year. I think I need to be my own company for a while, to find myself back to myself. Who I’ve become. Because I need to first know where I am, to figure out where to go and how to get there.

Just a little quick update. Most of my thinking have been quite internal, hence the lack of posts here. I’ve been meaning to write about stuff, but I’ve had so much going on with both work and stuff that I’m reading. But I won’t neglect this page. Sorry for not making today’s entry more interesting, but I figured it was time for at least a somewhat short update, especially since the last few posts has been so melancholic.

But it is what it is, and it’s getting better 🙂